I’ve explained that I am involved in a defamation lawsuit where I was forced to sue one of my most vociferous enemies for the malicious way that he presents information about me on the Internet. One of the main Defendants in this matter (and he loves me to use his name because any mention of it brings him value and a purpose in life … but I won’t cater to his ego) has actually caused considerable financial damage, not just to me, but to the company that employs me. It’s hard to calculate exactly how many contracts my company has lost because of the way that this particular Defendant was describing me on the Internet as a “cult leader.”
Before we filed the lawsuit, any time one of our potential customers would do an Internet search of our company’s name, the first thing that would come up was information that led a potential customer to believe that I had infiltrated the company, deceived its principle owner, and taken it over for the purposes of my cult. Obviously, anyone considering entering into a contract with our company would have a serious problem with this false and very defamatory information. As its CEO, the other things that my enemies publish about me that are malicious lies also have a great influence on anyone doing business with us.
Now, if I worked for McDonalds it wouldn’t be an issue that McDonalds was infiltrated by a cult leader. But if I did, this Defendant wouldn’t be making such defaming statements. But because some of the other officers of the company and some others who financially benefit thereby are former friends of this Defendant, he has taken up a great deal of time in his life in an attempt to punish them for respecting me and not wanting anything to do with him.
(I’m not going to get into more details about this because the case is pending in court.)
My enemies have the right to say anything that they want about me, even if what they say is an outright lies. However, when what they say generates hate for me with a malicious intent and causes financial damages to innocent people, I have a right to sue in court for relief from their maliciousness.
Defamation is the act of making untrue statements about another which damages his/her reputation. If the defamatory statement is printed or broadcast over the media it is libel and, if only oral, it is slander. Public figures, including officeholders and candidates, have to show that the defamation was made with malicious intent and was not just fair comment. If my enemies would keep their statements to being “just fair comment,” there wouldn’t be a lawsuit.
In considering whether or not I am the leader of a cult, one must define what a cult is. Generally, a cult is defined by with the following criteria:
The group displays excessively zealous and unquestioning commitment to its leader and (whether he is alive or dead) regards his belief system, ideology, and practices as the Truth, as law.
Questioning, doubt, and dissent are discouraged or even punished.
Mind-altering practices (such as meditation, chanting, speaking in tongues, denunciation sessions, and debilitating work routines) are used in excess and serve to suppress doubts about the group and its leader(s).
The leadership dictates, sometimes in great detail, how members should think, act, and feel (for example, members must get permission to date, change jobs, marry or leaders prescribe what types of clothes to wear, where to live, whether or not to have children, how to discipline children, and so forth).
The group is elitist, claiming a special, exalted status for itself, its leader(s) and members (for example, the leader is considered the Messiah, a special being, or the group and/or the leader is on a special mission to save humanity).
The group has a polarized us-versus-them mentality, which may cause conflict with the wider society.
The leader is not accountable to any authorities (unlike, for example, teachers, military commanders or ministers, priests, monks, and rabbis of mainstream religious denominations).
The group teaches or implies that its supposedly exalted ends justify whatever means it deems necessary. This may result in members’ participating in behaviors or activities they would have considered reprehensible or unethical before joining the group (for example, lying to family or friends, or collecting money for bogus charities).
The leadership induces feelings of shame and/or guilt in order to influence and/or control members. Often, this is done through peer pressure and subtle forms of persuasion.
Subservience to the leader or group requires members to cut ties with family and friends, and radically alter the personal goals and activities they had before joining the group.
The group is preoccupied with bringing in new members.
The group is preoccupied with making money.
Members are expected to devote inordinate amounts of time to the group and group-related activities.
Members are encouraged or required to live and/or socialize only with other group members.
The most loyal members feel there can be no life outside the context of the group. They believe there is no other way to be, and often fear reprisals to themselves or others if they leave (or even consider leaving) the group.
These criteria seem to define most religions, most political groups, philosophical trends, and the scientific and secular communities. In fact, any group of people that is formed under one unified purpose could be considered a cult. Donald Trump proved how powerful a cult can be. 🙂
If one is unwillingly to research my life and the work that I do, that one could easily, but incorrectly, suppose that I am a cult leader and that my claims and teachings are cult-like. But that is if one is unwilling to research and ask the hard questions. One cannot find ANY cult-like behaviors about me and the work in my complete transparency and willingness to answer the hard questions. Unlike a true cult leader, I will answer any question about anything, at anytime as long as the one asking the questions allows the interview to be recorded. Journalists often sensationalize and change the facts of their interviews to subjectively support their specific belief and agenda. For this reason, all interviews and questions asked of me must be recorded.
I claim to know the real truth, and that there are only a few others I have ever met who know the real truth like I do. But the real truth that we know is far from any cultish behavior.
It is true, that while I was engaged in helping people out of their religions and philosophies, which certainly could be defined as cults, I used a lot of the cultish means and behaviors necessary to get them out. But once out, these people are certainly not in another cult, not even close!
In fact, what I know and teach to be the real truth couldn’t be any further away from being a cult. But if one is unwilling to research and find out what this real truth is, that one will never understand this fact.
In the beginning, after June 16, 1987, I tried to do everything within my power to help others out of their cult by telling them the real truth that I learned from my experience. I failed miserably. No one would listen to me.
In order to understand what this real truth is, one must first understand what “my experience” was.
My brain had something happen to it that changed the perception of reality that had been cultured into it for twenty-five years to a completely different view of reality. This is the real truth that is not arguable. How it happen is arguable. But to me it is not arguable. The change provided the answer to what had happened to me. However, this new reality IS arguable, because it opposes every other person’s cultured reality. It will always be arguable. It was meant to be arguable.
This new reality is what I am finally allowed to publicly explain in detail for the very first time. This new reality is the basis of the upcoming book, The Game of Mortal Life, which, to the chagrin of my critics and enemies will be made available free of any charge, just like all the rest of the books that I have published. I write, “to the chagrin of my critics and enemies” because they have yet to prove any personal agenda on my part to enrich or aggrandize myself by the work. This is just one of the facts that oppose the idea that the work is cultish.
I walked out of the Salt Lake City LDS/Mormon Temple that day a completely different person, not in physical or personality characteristics, but in perception. Sure, it could be said that I went crazy that day. It could be said that my brain malfunctioned and became incapable of distinguishing between the reality that most of the world accepts and my new reality; that I became delusional and schizophrenic. It can also be said, as it is, that the devil possessed me at that time and made me his servant.
Anyone who studies my life and work will form his/her own opinion on what happened that day. But the real truth is: something happened.
This new reality caused me to understand that we are all highly advanced life forms (advanced humans) participating in a game-like experience. (This is the way another can currently understand it by observing the way and the why we play computer generated games of virtual reality.). But it’s actually more like an advanced human dreaming, not physically unconscious like mortals dream while asleep, but like mortals daydream.
I have always defined this new reality as the “real truth.” The REAL TRUTH is MY REALITY and is not arguable. You can reject it but you will be rejecting me. I want nothing to do with those who reject me. Who would?
If anyone wants to become part of my life and know me on an intimate level, that one will have to accept my real truth and not argue it. Why would I ever want to play the game of mortal life with someone who disrespects and disparages my reality and is always arguing with me about my reality? I don’t. I won’t.
My very limited number of friends and associates proves my desire to be true to myself. I couldn’t care less what any other player thinks of my reality. Part of the real truth is that each mortal player is gong to come up with his/her own reality. The challenge in life is to find the others who share your perception of reality, or who can respect yours just as much as you respect theirs.
The beauty of the real truth is that everyone is right, which actually makes everyone wrong. I have always known this to be the real truth since my experience. I’ve never expected anyone to see things my way. And there are only seven other people with whom I associate who share my real truth. Most of the people whom I encounter, especially those who study my work, have their own version of reality. I am not very close to these people. But the few with whom I do share some intimacy can only share the parts of our individual realities that are common and mutually understood.
This first claim, that we are advanced humans going through a mortal experience, is arguable. Most cannot accept it. But it is my real truth, and nothing anyone is ever going to say is going to prove ME wrong. This claim might be proven wrong to others, but it will NEVER be proven wrong to me. Whether or not another accepts this real truth as their own, is entirely up to that person. I’ve never forced it upon another.
The work that I do puts out information, not necessarily about the real truth, but what is necessary to fulfill the role for which I have been commissioned. Commissioned? What? By whom?
After 1987, it took a few years before others, who shared my same experience and real truth, approached me and asked me to be a representative of our shared real truth. These people, who prefer to remain anonymous, asked me to become involved in a work that they wanted to do. What is their work? Their work is to help others find and accept our real truth.
I’ve made what appeared to be some insane and outlandish claims. But they’re not outlandish to me. They are part of the real truth. Keep in mind, the REAL TRUTH is MY REALITY and is not arguable.
Since 1987, I knew that all of us live multiple mortal lives. As advanced humans we can choose when to become mortal and where (in what culture) to live a mortal life according to whatever purpose we want to participate with others in the game. However, our choices are limited to the choices made by other participants in The Game of Mortal Life. We cannot force another advanced human to make a choice that benefits us. All choices are individual and according to strict personal free will. But the purpose for which we want to participate in mortality is ours alone to choose.
Each of our mortal lives, if viewed in comparison, are very similar in their nature and purpose. In almost every one of my mortal incarnates I have played the same type of game, fulfilled the same type of role. The real truth is that one of my (as an advanced human) incarnates was the brother, Hyrum, of Joseph Smith. In another I was other people, some for whom history has never accounted. History has never directly accounted for one of my most important incarnates circa 80 b.c.e.. In that incarnate my advanced self lived as a child prodigy/savant by the name of Inpendius. (I’ve been counseled to not say anymore about this until the publication of my autobiography … Sigh.)
These claims are certainly arguable. Many argue these claims and state that I am making them up, that I have no proof of these claims; while others who have sincerely and with real intent studied my works, have been convinced.
For example, I recently explained that in one of my incarnates I worked as a true messenger and was responsible for what eventually became known as the biblical book of Isaiah. And the proof? There has never been another mortal alive or dead who can explain the book of Isaiah like I can. Although this claim is also arguable, those who have read my explanations have been thus convinced, and will remain convinced until someone else can explain Isaiah better than I can.
This is the real truth. The REAL TRUTH is MY REALITY and is not arguable.
One of the anonymous members of the group behind what I do was responsible for writing the book of Revelation. What proof is there? No one alive or dead has ever produced an explanation of the book of Revelation that comes close to the book, 666, the Mark of America–Seat of the Beast. The Apostle John’s book of Revelation Unfolded. And until someone else can present a better explanation, those who believe my claims will remain thus convinced.
My critics and enemies will never convince those who accept my real truth as part of their own, unless a better explanation of things is provided to them. This is one of my most crucial and important claims. It is the one thing that has convinced people of the veracity of my claims. I’ve always made the challenge: put me in a room, in front of a video camera, with any person talking about any subject and see which one makes more sense. However, just because something makes sense, doesn’t mean it is true.
My real truth does not make sense to most people. And it was never meant to. Yet, for those who embrace the work and hold it as one of their truths, it makes complete sense. IF anyone can come along and prove that it doesn’t make sense, then those who accept my claims will begin to doubt my claims.
If you are an LDS/Mormon, for an example, and your truth believes in the Book of Mormon, and your accepted scripture speaks of a sealed portion as the most important part of that book, you might be interested in reading its sealed portion. There are various claims by others that their sealed portion is the real sealed portion. But when compared to mine, these other claims depreciate rapidly. If anyone, anywhere, can come up with a better sealed portion than mine, then those who accept mine will be convinced that I am not who I claim to be. This can be said of all the books that I have produced.
Another part of real truth is that since 1987 I have been able to consciously participate in the reality of our advanced world just as easily as I am able to participate in this mortal one. That other advanced humans have approached me in that reality and asked me to do certain things that will help them find the real truth. This is the basis of the Marvelous Work and a Wonder®. All one needs to do, if searching for an alternative to their cultured truth, is READ THE DAMN BOOKS! If one is unwillingly to read and study the books, then that one will never consider the real truth as part of their own.
And so it is that I have many critics and enemies, none of whom has ever convinced, nor will ever be able to convince anyone who has accepted the real truth as part of their own. Why? Because the real truth makes more sense than their own or anyone else’s whom they have encountered, especially than that of my hate-filled critics and enemies.
My critics and enemies attack me personally. They can’t say much about the work that I produce, so they attempt to sway others from reading the books and researching by claiming that I am a false prophet, a charlatan, a manipulator, a deceiver who exploits and takes advantage of other people for his own gain; that I am the leader of a cult.
That’s all they got.
Recently I had to enter a thread of communication in which a few of my enemies were engaged, where one of my past acquaintances, Kyle D. Williams, took opportunity to disparage me and mock the real truth. When I engaged Kyle, he immediately took a defensive position and told me that he wouldn’t believe me unless I proved to him that my claims were true.
The problem is, Kyle doesn’t have a clue what my claims actually are. And when I encouraged him to read and research them himself, he claimed he didn’t want to spend the time. Because of his past remarks about his personal involvement with me, and his continued disparagement of me and the work, I was forced to attack his credibility, which greatly hurt me and caused me considerable pain. I do not like doing this to a person.
In a private email I had warned Kyle to stop talking about me and my past and disparaging a work that he knows virtually nothing about. He refused. I revealed some things about Kyle of which he is embarrassed. I did this to allow a fair field of challenge, where my credibility was in question, then so should his. Unfortunately, this revelation of his past action will be a great detriment to us ever reconciling our differences. The main differences between us is that I have NEVER disparaged him or what he believes, while he has spent a considerable amount of time talking to my enemies and joining their cause against me, evident by the way that he publicly speaks of me and the work that I do.
The real truth is that Kyle D. Williams was a very integral part of the work that I do. The real truth is, his advanced self asked me on various occasions in our past to do whatever I could to help his mortal avatar “see the light.”
This is the real truth about my involvement with Kyle D. Williams:
In the early part of my LDS/Mormon mission to Buenos Aires, Argentina, I was called into a special meeting with then President Joseph Bishop. Bishop was one of the most arrogant LDS leaders I had ever met up to that point. But he was my called-by-the-Lord mission leader, so it didn’t matter what my personal feelings were about his character. The Lord called him so I would obey him. (That there is cultish behavior, Folks.)
President Bishop told me about a personal weakness one of the older missionaries had who only had a few months to go. It is VERY unorthodox for a religious leader to reveal the “sins” of another member. But President Bishop had no reservations about explaining what this missionary’s personal problem was. He told me that I would become this missionary’s junior companion to help him make it through the rest of his mission. I was known for my strong devotion but jovial nature. I suppose the President thought I would be good for this elder missionary during the final days of his mission. This missionary was Kyle D. Williams.
I’m not going to make it an official part of this record what Kyle’s personal problems were. I got to know him for who he is as a human being, and few men compare in honesty and integrity to Kyle D. Williams. I learned this about him while I was his junior companion, and I believe that to this day. This is why it caused me such incredible consternation to publicly reveal in the thread my enemies had started what his past “sins” were. Because to me, the circumstances surrounding the “sins” that he committed do not justify the way that the world will judge him for what he did. I know the circumstances. I’ve known them for many, many years. But this knowledge has never, and will never, discount the way I feel about this man’s character. Of all the people I have ever encountered in this mortality, Kyle D. Williams remains as one of the most honest and reputable people I have ever known.
But he is also very gullible. Without talking to me, he was contacted by my enemies and was filled with the most vicious lies and accusations about my character. Kyle, being who he is, wanted only to help those whom he felt were being abused by me. Kyle was duped by my enemies and their false testimonies. He should have gotten my side of the story. He should have researched the facts. But he didn’t. It is in his character to help other people, and I know he sincerely believed that in disparaging me he might help save other people from my abuse. Well, he was wrong.
Of all the people I have met upon this Earth, I do not believe any is as smart as Kyle. This “smartness” has to do with how he learns and analyzes things.
So here’s what happened between us, which was one of the first lessons I learned about becoming a true messenger:
I was only with Kyle for a couple of months as a missionary. He left for home and I stayed. Miraculously, so I thought at the time, I ran into Kyle again in 1984. Unknowingly, we had both joined the Utah Army National Guard about the same time and were attending the Defense Language Institute in Monterey, California. I was studying the Russian language, and apropos with Kyle’s “smartness,” he was studying the hardest languages to learn: Mandarin Chinese and Farsi/Persian. I’m uncertain of which was his main focus, but they’re both extremely hard to learn. Like he has always done, Kyle excelled. Our encounter in Monterey was very brief, but again impressed upon my mind how smart Kyle really was.
I didn’t know anything about Kyle again until 1986.
I was sitting in the front lobby of LDS Genealogy Library in Salt Lake City, Utah as a security officer, and who came through the front doors? Kyle D. Williams. We had another extraordinary and brief encounter, and I again was apprised and amazed at his integrity, honesty, and smartness. Kyle was working for clients researching their genealogy. He was paid by the hour. When he stopped to talk to me at the security desk, Kyle pushed a button on his watch that stopped the time that he would charge the client for whom he was working at the time. That there, Folks, is fucking honesty and integrity!
So it was that I had developed a deep respect for Kyle, beyond anyone that I had ever intimately known before. Again, his personal weaknesses had no bearing on his extraordinary character. I respected him greatly.
Our encounters while I was a security officer were very brief and few.
Then the event of June 16, 1987 occurred.
With my new enlightenment I arrogantly, but properly, viewed myself as the most intelligent mortal alive, owing to the fact that I knew the real truth about our human existence and had not yet met (knowingly) anyone else who knew what I knew. With this intelligence, I wanted to share it with others. But with whom? Who possibly had the capacity to grasp the new reality that was now my only truth? I thought about it and the first person who came to mind was Kyle D. Williams.
I contacted Kyle in the early part of 1988 and told him that I wanted to talk to him. By this time he had moved back to Grandview, Missouri and was living with his wife Jeanene and their newborn son in his father’s house. I quit my LDS employment, packed up my new, pregnant wife, Jackie Stoll Nemelka, n.k.a. Howard, and immediately moved to Grandview Missouri. I had only one purpose in mind: be near a friend who I was sure could grasp and accept what was now my real truth.
Long story short,
No matter how hard I tried to convince Kyle that the LDS/Mormon religion, the Book of Mormon, and Joseph Smith were not what he actually thought they were, I failed miserably.
One rainy day Kyle showed up at my door barefoot with his LDS scriptures in hand and basically called me to repentance and told me to follow the leaders of the Church. He was trying to save me. I knew then that Kyle might have been one of the “smartest” mortals I knew, but he was certainly not that intelligent.
After this rainy day encounter, I moved from Grandview, Missouri, with my hopes and dreams shattered of finding someone who would understand what had happened to me. Kyle simply could not understand because of his inculcation and cultured upbringing. Without religion, Kyle had no value at the time.
I didn’t see or contact Kyle until he tracked me down in Seattle, Washington (1989). Kyle then informed me that he had been excommunicated and was getting a divorce. I felt for the man and offered him my continued friendship. I had learned by that time that I was never going to convince any person to leave their religion by telling them the real truth. So when I encountered Kyle in Washington, I didn’t try to tell him anything about it. Kyle disappeared again and I didn’t see him for quite some time thereafter.
In 1991, while running from the law to protect custody of my son, Joshua, who could I trust to help me run? Kyle D. Williams. I found Kyle living in his grandmother’s house in Idaho Falls, Idaho, caring for her. These details are crucial and extraordinary and will be explained further in my autobiography. It should be obvious to anyone that I trusted Kyle more than I did anyone else I knew, except my recruiters. I had thrown the work back in their face when I was forced to run from the law to protect my fatherhood. Kyle became an innocent but loyal accomplice.
After this event, I lost touch with him again.
Then one day in 1992, while riding a bus in Salt Lake City, I looked out the window and who did I see walking along the sidewalk? Kyle D. Williams. I yelled for the bus to stop and got out to meet him. This was NOT a miracle at the time, Folks, it was a choice that his advanced self made to encounter me yet again. But I still knew that he could not handle the real truth.
Shortly thereafter, Kyle sold most of his possessions, found me, gave me all the money he had in the world and his trusty old trumpet for safekeeping. He asked me to guard his few belongings while he went off in search of …. I don’t think Kyle knew at the time what he was searching for … but he disappeared off the grid for awhile. A few months later, Kyle returned, took possession of his money and trumpet and we parted ways.
Before Kyle came back from his walk-about, I had encountered the others who had found me and recruited me to be their true messenger. I threw a few tidbits of real truth out to Kyle, but he was still unreceptive to the idea that religion needed to be used to get people out of religion. He had left religion on his own, but under negative emotional circumstances. Kyle probably would have never questioned his faith in Mormonism had it not been for the way that the Church treated him and eventually excommunicated him. He had not left his religion because of his intelligence, but because of his emotions.
I explained a little bit to Kyle about what Joseph Smith had done and that I would continue his work by producing The Sealed Portion of the Book of Mormon. But by this time, Kyle wanted nothing to do with anything that had to do with religion. We parted ways in 1992, not to encounter or contact each other again for many years.
Finally in 2004, when I was instructed to produce The Sealed Portion of the Book of Mormon, I made contact with Kyle and once again tried to explain what it was that we were doing. He didn’t like the idea and rejected the premise that new scripture needed to be written and presented properly to help people eventually reject old scripture. Once I felt his apprehension and non-support for what I was doing, I had nothing else to do with Kyle. He was still my friend and would have remained so had he not chosen to become my enemy.
I learned great lessons from dealing with Kyle D. Williams, lessons that I was meant to learn by staying in touch with him for so many years. I learned that no matter how “smart” a mortal might be, no matter how humble and good that person might be, unless that person chooses to question and seek an alternative to that person’s reality, that person will fight to defend the only reality from which they gain the greatest self-worth. I also learned that the core humanity inherent in all of us is greatly compromised by the lack of understanding of the real truth. There was no reason for Kyle to turn on me so vehemently. I had never treated him with anything less than great respect and friendship. He was mean to me.
We remain … until Kyle can accept that the REAL TRUTH is MY REALITY and is not arguable … enemies. Unfortunately for Kyle, in an open debate on truth and reality, in public, recorded for all to see, I would crush his “smartness” with the intelligence of the real truth. From our recent correspondence, those who have embraced the real truth can now see the great difference between Kyle D. William’s “smartness” and my intelligence.
Those with whom Kyle shared his vehement disrespect for me and the work are now more convinced than they were before about the claims that I have made.
Kyle D. Williams was a necessary part of my development as a true messenger. From dealing with Kyle I learned that I cannot tell people the real truth because they will reject it until they are looking for it.
My intelligence has made me a nice person to be around; and Kyle’s smartness has made him a mean person, at least in regards to the only man who truly understood who he was and what his trials were, and who always stood in support of him and by his side … no matter what his own real truth might be.
The importance of The Game of Life book is that it will reveal the real truth in more clarity and detail than I have ever been able to present it. I hope upon reading it, Kyle will gain a greater understanding of my claims and what happened to me in 1987. He might not agree with it, but at least he might understand me and what I do a little more clearly.
Kyle has questioned the fruits of the work I do. This is a recent response to Kyle by one of the people who has followed my work for many years:
But anyways …
My enemies are playing the game of life according to their way. Their way is not the real truth, evident by the fact that they are acting like mean people, when they are actually the greatest compendium of matter that has ever, can ever, and will ever exist. If they would just realize this, then they might play nice.