I received the following from a friend and supporter:
“Please consider that some of us are experiencing some serious cognitive dissonance, feeling completely helpless and disillusioned with much of what is happening around us. Reading or watching the news is a sure fire recipe for sadness. Have people always been this way, is the media focusing on it more than times past, or is something transpiring to give people permission to behave in the most horrific ways? From the way they treat others to the way they treat animals, I just cannot reconcile the cruelty. If I help ONE person, does it matter? If I watch and do nothing because who am I to interfere with someone else’s free will, does it matter? If I fight for my own survival, does it matter? Is it right? Or do I just descend into hardship because that seems to be the course if I do nothing? It is an utterly impossible set of variables that we all face, wont to be true to ourselves and yet paralyzed by the obstacles. I cannot take enough deep breaths, meditate enough, drink enough, smoke enough, to make the suffering go away or to numb myself from those things over which I have no control. Nor can I seem to develop an eternal perspective that makes me understand that we will all be okay. I tightly hold onto my own little world, the smile on the faces of children who don’t yet realize the shit storm they have dropped themselves into… and shame myself for these moments of happiness that feel stolen at someone else’s expense.
“I am in this space more than I would like, more than is healthy and in these times I throw my hands up, shake my head and wonder if anything matters … I do not want what I think I now understand to get the best of me, to take away my happiness or my ability to feel joy and so any pearls of wisdom you have are greatly appreciated.
“In the words of Carly Simon, “In the name of honesty, in the name of what is fair, you’ve always answered my questions, but they don’t always answer my prayers…”