My cousin, Scott Nemelka, who is my same age (almost 60 years old), is currently in the hospital, in the ICU (Intensive Care Unit), waiting for a new heart—a heart transplant.
My family suffers from a genetic defect that affects the heart of a lot of the male members. The defect comes from my grandmother, as far as I understand it, so the defect isn’t as prevalent in the other branch of Nemelkas that comes from the same area of the United States.
My great-grandfather, Carl Alois Nemelka, migrated to the United States and had two sons, Joseph N. and David R. My grandfather and his brother were the main progenitors of the Nemelka name that originated in the Germanic lands of Central Europe.
Because of my grandmother, Gayle Nemelka, the genetic defect was isolated to my father’s family. The defect seems to skip every other male sibling. Every other son in my father’s family was affected by it. My father was one of the lucky ones, thus so was I. Scott’s father, my dad’s older brother (Duane) just above him, had the defect and died at a very young age (in his 30’s).
I texted Scott yesterday,
“Scott, I’d give you my heart if they’d let me. Always my best.”
To most, and maybe to Scott, the offer might have seemed a bit insincere considering his current circumstance.
I can’t imagine what it is like lying in a hospital dying, and waiting for someone else to die so that you can continue to live, and knowing that other people younger than you and in better health are ahead of you on the transplant list.
I can’t imagine what it is like to face death every minute of every day, surrounded by those with whom you have shared your life, a life that might end very soon.
Scott’s wife, Jenny, has been with him for as long as I can remember.
I’ve always envied Scott and Jenny. They have a relationship that I was never able to find, nor do I believe I could ever find or sustain, knowing what I know and doing what I do.
Nevertheless, I was VERY sincere with what I offered my dear cousin Scott.
I WOULD give him my heart, if the laws of this world allowed, and if in so doing it would benefit others.
I know it would benefit his dear wife, Jenny, and his children, and his grandchildren, and all those who have known Scott throughout his life.
I’m not sure if my own heart would be considered a viable candidate, however.
I suffer from Atrial Fibrillation, I’m almost 60 years-old, and I LOVE sugar! (I’m TRYING to kill myself slowly, but those who depend on me to finish their work are doing everything they can to convince me otherwise. Sigh … But anyways …)
I’ve explained that there are but a VERY FEW in my own family who have taken the time to meet with me and try to understand what I am doing with my life.
Recently, I boldly and with much trepidation, explained that a couple of members of my family, who were the most vociferous and malicious in spreading rumors and giving their baseless opinion about me, were “taken out” by the “powers that be.” This statement was NOT well-received by my family. But it is how I know it to be, nevertheless.
Besides Scott, a couple other cousins, my kid brother Joe, my sister Alesa (to some extent) and a couple other aunts and uncles, my family has no clue what I am like.
My supportive uncle, Richard S. “Dick” Nemelka, died unexpectedly last year.
Uncle Dick was starting to find out many things from me and get involved in what I am doing in my life. I lost who I believed was my greatest advocate with the rest of my family. (I have much more to say about what happened between Dick and me during the last few years of his life, and how Uncle Dick was finally coming around to understand the things that I know to be Real Truth™. But this is about my cousin, Scott.)
Earlier this year, Scott and I were communicating and trying to set up a time to meet and spend some time together.
Scott, and one of my other cousins, Mark S. Nemelka, are among the very few in my family who have never judged me or considered my sanity to be anything other than what it always been to them … their sane cousin, Chris. (For this, I have loved them both dearly.)
Scott identifies as a member of the LDS/Mormon Church, a religion that I will spend the rest of my life confronting and condemning. Therefore, I was very concerned that, by meeting with me, it might in some way affect the relationships that both Scott and Mark have with other members of our family of the same faith.
I wrote to them,
“Hey Dear Cousins,
“First, I want to thank you both for the way you have treated m[e] throughout our lives, with love and kindness, never judging me, never saying anything bad about me behind my back … or in front. :-)
“I would love to have you visit this year, but I want you to be aware of what’s going [on] with the rest of the family, and more importantly, with what is happening since the group I am working with published their latest book [A New American Scripture—How and Why the Real Illuminati® Created the Book of Mormon].
“The LDS Church is up in arms and VERY concerned about this new book. The Church has never dealt with anything like what our group is doing to expose the Church for what we know it to be.
“But anyways …
“I care deeply about both of you and your families. I do NOT want your relationship with me to harm your character or standing with the family or your community in ANY way.
“Please review all that I have shared on my Facebook profile, read and FEEL between the lines, speak to your wives about it, and make sure you are making the right choice for YOU in visiting me in [location undisclosed].
“You’ll always be welcome.
“Sheri oversees the property and the accommodations. Please coordinate your desire with her. (She’s part of this text.)
“Again, thanks to both of you for your kindness.
“Waiting to hear back,
“P.S. Aunt Beth reached out and explained why she couldn’t come. She’s such a sweet person. I sure love that woman, but want the best always for her too.”
Anyone who knows Scott Nemelka would know his character is very refreshing. He is a smart, yet very humble man, who has a sharp sense of humor.
Here was his response:
“Y[eah], you may be right, if we associate with you I may not realize my lifelong dream of becoming a Bishop and Jenny may not get to be the Relief Society President. Or, who the [heck] cares about what others think? Such a dilemma.”
You gotta love Scott’s character … what a character!
I sincerely do not want to lose another supporter. I do not believe that the world would be a better place with Scott gone.
I wrote to him,
“Scott, I just found out that you’re in ICU … WTF? You die and I’ll go to the hereafter and drag your ass back here! …
“If I were a praying man, I’d pray for you.
“So I”ll just say …
“Love to you and all my best.”
Again, Scotty’s response was a typical Scotty response:
“Root for me, that is better. “
I can only hope those were NOT the last words that I ever read from my dear cousin Scott.
My response was,
“Scott, I’d give you my heart if they’d let me. Always my best.”
It is true that I cannot legally or morally give my physical heart to Scott, but I was VERY SINCERE about “giving him my heart.” In so doing—which means sending him all the love that I can—I can tell him some things that I hope he will understand and accept with the love and sincerity in which I offer them.
The rest of this post is specifically dedicated to my beloved cousin, Scott Nemelka.
What is death?
Is it the end of life, or is it the beginning of another conscious experience in a different world, with different people?
If we die and find ourselves awake (conscious) and aware of new surroundings, what is the Real Truth™ about these heavenly surroundings?
Are these surroundings new or are they familiar, comfortable, and perfectly suited to our existence?
What kind of body will we have after death?
Do we have a heart that pumps blood, lungs that breath air, and a mouth that eats food?
My dearest cousin, I know these things. I know these answers.
I have experienced this world more times than I can explain, more than I ever wanted to.
It was VERY hard experiencing this world like I did … VERY HARD.
Once you’ve experienced that world … which I like to call our Real World—our True Reality … you don’t want to leave and go back to this “lone and dreary world.”
Yet, here I am. Luckily for me, I do not visit that place too often anymore. It’s gotten harder and harder to leave when I find myself there.
How did I find myself there?
I would experience that world while I was asleep, dreaming.
Instead of having regular dreams like a normal person, I would find myself in this incredible world experiencing the most profound and beautiful sights and sounds, and most profoundly, among the most fascinating advanced humans anyone could ever imagine existed.
If I may, I will borrow some text from a book you are aware of … but I am pretty sure you haven’t been too interested in throughout your life.
The following text pretty much explains what happened to me on June 16, 1987, which was the time when you and the rest of the family saw a significant change, not in me, but in my lifestyle.
“And behold, the heavens were opened, and [I was] caught up into heaven, and saw and heard unspeakable things. And it was forbidden [me] that [I] should utter; neither was it given unto [me] power that [I] could utter the things which [I] saw and heard;
“And whether [I was] in the body or out of the body, [I] could not tell; for it did seem unto [me] like a transfiguration of [me], that [I was] changed from this body of flesh into an immortal state, [so] that [I] could behold the things of God.
“But it came to pass that [I] did [continue to live] upon the face of the earth; nevertheless [I] did not minister of the things which [I] had heard and seen, because of the commandment which was given [me] in heaven.”
—BOM, 3 Nephi 28:13–16.
It wasn’t until 2012 that I was finally allowed to start telling [ministering] “the things which I had heard and seen.” The “commandment” had been lifted.
Scott, I’m not going to explain how or why I was able to have this experience. You probably wouldn’t believe me anyway … and that’s why I usually end a lot of my writings with “But anyways.” :-)
But I promised you my heart—the best that I can share it with you.
Our real world is eternity. There is no time there.
You will NOT miss Jenny when you die.
Her eternal Self will always be with your eternal Self, as long as the two of you want to be together … LITERALLY FOREVER.
(Consider it to be a choice that two advanced eternal human beings make to always be together and have mutual experiences. There’s a movie you might like. It’s a bit of a mind tease, but the ending is profound and makes you think, and is well worth watching: The Thirteenth Floor, 1999.)
When your mortal brain no longer produces any electrical energy, you will awaken in our real world and realize that you never really left that world. You will realize that your mind was engaged in a dreamlike experience that plays out in a way that your mortal Self (Scott Nemelka) perceives as your only reality.
I’m not sure how many times you visited one of the LDS temples and viewed the endowment presentation. But if you did and can remember how it played out during the presentation, you might remember some incredible things that were meant to teach people the Real Truth™ about human existence.
If you recall, the play starts out with three main characters, Elohim, Jehovah, and Michael. These were presented as gods who were creating another world “like unto the other worlds we have heretofore created.”
Once these gods created this earth, there wasn’t yet a mortal human upon it. So, what did they do about that?
Elohim and Jehovah caused the third god, Michael, to enter into a “deep sleep” and wake up in what Michael thought was a new world—the only world he was aware of—as the mortal man Adam.
The endowment presentation presents this first dream dimension when an advanced human god becomes a mortal person—through dreaming. (There is no other implication or idea being presented.)
Scott, you’ve read a lot of what I have shared, but let’s cut to the chase, so you can really understand what you might experience pretty soon.
In 1842, those who are known in LDS/Mormon dogma—but actually according to how they presented their existence on this earth in their new American scripture—the Three Nephites, were the ones working with Joseph Smith behind the scenes and helping him do what he did.
(Yep, it sucks for the LDS/Mormon Church, but this same group of people recruited and helped me do everything that I have done.)
But anyways …
Joseph NEVER told the Real Truth™ about what he knew, nor about what he had actually experienced as a young teenager in 1820.
The same “illumination” that happened to me on June 16, 1987, happened to Joseph Smith on April 6, 1820 … the EXACT SAME EXPERIENCE. Neither of us was allowed to tell the Real Truth™ about what happened “because of the commandment which was given [us] in heaven.”
If you recall, my “story” included having our grandfather, Joseph Nephi Nemelka visit me during the version of my own First Vision. And Joseph gave quite a few differing accounts of what happened during his, until he was instructed to create an official “story” about his experience.
Both of our First Vision stories were not the Real Truth™. We weren’t allowed to tell the Real Truth™. We were under strict mandate to …
Well, let me quote the scripture that was the basis for the “lies” that we were forced to tell the people, “because they desired it”:
“But behold, the [LDS/Mormon people] were a stiffnecked people; and they despised the words of plainness, and [would have risen up and killed us if we told them the Real Truth™ about the mysteries of God], and sought for things that they could not understand. Wherefore, because of their blindness, which blindness came by looking beyond the mark [set by the simple and clear teachings of Jesus Christ], they must needs fall; for God hath taken away his plainness from them, and delivered unto them many things which they cannot understand, because they desired it. And because they desired it God hath done it, that they may stumble.” (BOM, Jacob 4:14.)
Yeah, I could quote so many other LDS/Mormon scriptures that pretty clearly show how the LDS people are so incredibly blind and prideful, that they would kill their own Jesus, IF such a one came to them and started teaching them his “mark” and the Real Truth™.
And again, but anyways …
Joseph Smith was so distraught in 1842 about all the lying he was forced to do, that he convinced the “Three Nephites” to help him write a play that would symbolically teach some of the most significant Real Truth™s that he knew about the mysteries of life.
Elohim and Jehovah put the equal god, Michael, to sleep so that the this god could experience mortal life upon the earth.
That was the very first scene of the play/presentation.
What you didn’t see (what was taken out of the original endowment by Brigham Young, who didn’t have clue about what the symbolism of the endowment actually meant) was the FINAL SCENE.
Of course, one would logically and reasonably conclude that, if Elohim, Jehovah, and Michael are equal eternal gods, then Michael couldn’t remain asleep forever. He had to wake up sometime in order to create more of the worlds that they had “heretofore created.” Right?
Well, the original denouement (final scene) was a scene when Elohim and Jehovah woke Michael out of the deep sleep, so that the three of them could go on and do what they have always done—continue to create “worlds without end.”
When Joseph’s followers first saw the final scene of the original 1842 play, they were quite perplexed with what they saw. If the god Michael was the mortal Adam, but only while he was asleep dreaming, then what happened to the mortal man Adam, when Michael was awakened by the other two gods?
And because Eve came from Adam, after Adam was put to sleep again, after he (Michael) became Adam, then what happened to Eve?
And because Lucifer doesn’t appear in the play until Adam is put to sleep the second time, so that Eve could exist, what happened to Lucifer when during the final scene of the play/presentation Michael is awakened and takes his place again alongside Elohim and Jehovah as an eternal, equal god?
You can see, Scott, the LDS/Mormons don’t have a clue what the temple endowment is all about.
Enough of all that.
Let me give you my heart!
Human existence is the most incredible experience any life form can have. Humans are the greatest compendium of matter possible, anywhere in the universe.
Humans in their true form, as their True Advanced Selves, have always existed and always will … worlds without end.
Nothing would exist without humans.
Think about it …
If humans didn’t exist to think about existence and assign meaning to all that does exist, would there be any existence? … Think of that old philosophical question, “If a tree falls in the forest and no one is around to hear or see it fall, did it really fall?”
“Which came first, the chicken or the egg?”
Neither. They have both ALWAYS existed.
Who came first, Scott Nemelka, or Scott Nemelka’s Michael?
If Scott’s god Michael had to exist in order for Scott Nemelka to exist, then who is Scott Nemelka going to be when Scott’s Elohim and Jehovah wakes him up from the dream of mortal life?
This reality doesn’t bother you, does it Scotty?
What bothers you the most is what is going to happen to YOUR “EVE” … to Jenny.
That’s all that you’re worried about. What will happen to Jenny when you die?
Will she be okay? Will Scott (Adam) ever see her (Eve) again as Jenny?
The Real Truth™ is … again, if I may, let me borrow the actual words of Jesus Christ, according to the Christians:
“And Jesus answering said unto them, The children of this world marry, and are given in marriage: But they which shall be accounted worthy to obtain that world, and the resurrection from the dead, neither marry, nor are given in marriage: Neither can they die any more: for they are equal unto the angels; and are the children of God, being the children of the resurrection.” (Luke 20:34–36.)
Consider for a moment, Scott, what you viewed during the temple endowment play/presentation about where Eve came from.
Eve came from Adam’s side.
Adam is actually Michael, an eternal god
And whoever is actually at Michael’s side—Adam’s Eve—has ALWAYS and will ALWAYS be at his side.
Jenny’s True Self has always been at your side, and will be forever and ever, as long as both of your True Selves want it that way.
My beloved cousin and friend,
You have NOTHING to fear or worry about.
If it is your time to leave this “lone and dreary world,” then during the final scene of your mortal existence, you will wake up at Jenny’s side … worlds without end.
This I know.
This I promise you.
From my heart.
Your Beloved Cousin and Eternal Friend and Servant,